It’s June which means we’re already mid-2017. Just a few months from now, it would be Christmas. Then, another year will arrive. How do you feel mid-year?

That Mid-Year Roller Coaster Feeling

Last month, I wrote and posted about something about how May was. I did that blog post mid-May and since then, it has become somehow a practice to blog about how I am during mid-month. Honestly, I may have considered myself to be missing in action when it comes to blogging.

Before, I was still able to schedule posts in advance but now, I feel that somehow that part of me is lost. Lost in the sense that she’s taking her break from all the things she has been going through. Realizations happened and sometimes, there are things that change after quite some time. People change, honestly speaking.

But what should matter is how you are when some of the things change. Have you asked yourself if how are you doing or feeling? I bet you haven’t. We are so engrossed with the idea of being stable in life. Yet when that happens, something feels like void. Or maybe, we feel empty. Accomplishing that gave us something to live by however achieving it left us hanging at some point.

Self-Identified Anxious or Depressed

This has been a challenge to almost everyone. Admitting you are not well is a tedious thing. It’s easier to just say you’re okay or you’re fine but deep down you’re dying.

This is how I have been struggling or feeling the past few months. To those who haven’t met me personally, may seem everything’s fine. But, it is not.

I have been researching about anxiety disorder or just plain anxiety and depression for almost a year. Thinking that I may have those but just in denial. As others may not know, consulting professionals may cost you a lot. Sometimes, there’s no guarantee that you would be able to consult. Some of you may wonder how I started feeling this. Believe me, it has been quite a while and I’m just quite grateful that calligraphy and the arts were there when this happened.

To the parents out there, when your child or children share something about mental health, please do not take it as a joke. Not only that but also, please refraining from giving them pressure. You may not realize it now but sometimes even indirectly, we feel it. We know you’re just concerned or what but just not too much. It can be somehow devastating.

Mental health is a serious matter that should not be disregarded. You are wonderfully blessed if the people around you try to support and understand you even if they don’t have a full grasp of it. What matters is they are trying, right?

A person who is not emotionally well cannot do things very well. As you see, emotional quotient is far more important than intelligence quotient.

Through my research, I realized that I really need to cope up with this. There are apps that help but Paralign is the only app that I’ve tried that is seriously helping me.

That Lost Phase

A few weeks back, I posted about adulting. Well, that is a big factor on how I’m feeling this June. There’s that question that always puts me on a pedestal.

What are your plans?

To be honest, I am tired of hearing this. Eventually, we all have plans. It’s just that we have our own paths and discoveries in life before we ultimately reach that plan or dream or goal. Some may thing that I’m still young (already 24) but sometimes, I feel I’m stuck somewhere down that path.

Most of you would think that, what kind of a person am I to be saying this. But, I’m a person like you struggling to support myself little by little and still pursue my passion.

Pursuing your passion is easy for some because they have the money to do so. But for people like me, it’s quite hard. Some would scorn on why we pursue art or anything related to the creative field.

Most would say that there’s no money there. There’s none if you don’t work your ass off to get something. I bet some of you are pursuing art and are being undermined by your other relatives. You are so lucky if they are all supportive about you doing it.

Some would require an end result as soon as possible. They don’t realize that there’s a path to success. It’s not as visible as the yellow brick road but it’s there. We all just have to discover it little by little.

Success doesn’t happen overnight. Keep your eye on the prize and don’t look back.
Erin Andrews

Lastly, so this won’t be a gloomy life lately post.

Actual Good News

There are some thing that are actually good when June arrived. Our finals exams were done so finally, I’m on vacation even if I’m doing some work.

Even if I had some realizations, here are some of the good news:

• We will be popping up somewhere in Makati this June! I’m really hoping that we could showcase our talents to others as well. Hoping to inspire fellow enthusiasts and artisans!
  • Honestly, I am nervous about it. Hope you’ll be there to support us!
• I just released my sticker packs for sale at our Cuaderno pop-up! It’s the first time that I made some sticker packs for our pop-up. All the long hours of scribbling, scanning and digitizing paid off when I saw my work printed! It’s displayed there so hope you’ll visit!
  • Earning is a bonus on this!
• On the techie part, I’m using this app called duet. I saw this from Camie Juan’s Instagram story and seeing the reviews made me buy it as well. Truthfully, it was worth the money!
  • If you’re eager or enthusiastic to get to know this product, I may write a review about it soon! Keep posted!
• Happily freelancing as well! Hoping for more gigs or rakets this 2017!

So that’s how June has been lately for me. How about you?

How’s your mid-year coming?